Put down the deposit on my next apartment. Quite glad to not have to worry about where I’m going to live come next semester. Now it’s just up to me that there is a next semester. Don’t know if I’ve made it clear, but I don’t handle stress well. With the first wave of exams almost past, and no despair-inducing results, I think I’ll be okay. Recognize, though, that this is entirely contingent upon me staying focused.
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One less thing to worry about
http://www.nicolysis.net/2011/02/one-less-thing-to-worry-about/
February 26 2011, 5:25pm | Comments »
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Carless and Snow White
http://www.nicolysis.net/2010/02/carless-and-snow-white/
I think I’m too dependent on my car. Even though I don’t use it quite so much in college, I feel like I’ve lost something. Really no big deal; brother’s just taking it to San Antonio for the time being since he totaled his car. He needs it more than I do, and we’re siblings, so we help each other out. Real talk. I’m really excited about going to Austin next year, especially now that I have the living situation worked out. It might be cramped: five people in one apartment, but we’ll manage. It will be much less costly than living on campus, and the half-mile walk will be good for me. It snowed a lot on Thursday. A lot in North Texas standards; maybe you heard about it. It was the most snow I have ever seen at once. Unfortunately, I was ill-equipped for the snow, and I still had to go to class. I was a little miserable trudging through the snow in jeans, a sweatshirt, and a pair of Converse. My physics test was postponed so I went back to my dorm and saw a couple of smart people outside the dorm. “You put the Wal-Mart bag over the shoe.” Alas, it was too late for me. Then the school closed down at 3:00pm. The damage was done. Friday’s classes were cancelled, too, but I don’t have classes Fridays, so no bigs. I spent the rest of Thursday watching Metalocalypse. What a great show. I think I slept straight through Friday – not even a little bit of studying (which would have been prudent) or eating. I didn’t feel that my hunger was worth a walk through the snow. I did, however, tend to my car a little bit by removing the five inches of snow that sat on the windshield. My brother laughed at me when I was late picking him up from the train station on Saturday. We went home and had dinner as a family, they watched the Olympics while I worked, napped, and did laundry, and then yesterday morning my dad drove me back to school. This was probably my most eventful weekend since school started. It was nice seeing everybody, but I hate to say that it didn’t feel particularly special. My first tests of the semester this week, and first English essay – feeling a little uneasy about all of this. I have no doubt I’ll be fine, but this knowledge cannot help my insecurities. I really don’t know how to end an entry. I hate writing.
February 15 2010, 10:06am | Comments »
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Let’s Try Something New or: Here We Go Again
http://www.nicolysis.net/2009/12/lets-try-something-new-or-here-we-go-again/
Wow. I feel like I only post once every other month. No, wait, that’s exactly how it is. It’s for the best, though. Otherwise there would be dozens more entries over trivial feelings and the nothings that occur in my life. Besides, anything worth mentioning can be said in 140 characters or less (that’s what Twitter is for). Or a single paragraph (that’s what tumblr is for). Of course, when I do have intentions to post here it always ends up typed, unfinished and finally deleted. From the database and my mind. Hohoho, “my mind.” On to the trivial stuff. I finished my first semester of college recently. The verdict: not bad, but I suspect it will get more difficult. Academically, I’m doing a few things wrong. But I’ve been getting better lately. I just feel really discouraged. There are many leading tones sounding off in my head, begging to be followed on, answered by silence. What can I do to better myself? Ha, ha, I started writing this entry on December 4, and so many things I had said are no longer applicable. A testament to my inability to finish thoughts. Sentences, er, concep — Great winter break so far! I’ve been able to visit with Jessie and Linnea a couple times, the Asians (a collective term for any one of them – I won’t be arsed to list them off because it’s all the same, really. Okay, kidding, but they know who they are) and brother is coming home tonight to visit for the weekend. Not too excited about Christmas Eve or whatever – for us it’s just about food. At least right now, since I’m not hungry, I don’t care or want to think a whole lot about food. I’ll probably care tomorrow when I wake up. Eh, I’m in a rush to finish this just so I can say I posted. I’m not in an especially good mood right now. Volatile emotions and whatnot. You know. Being a girl. I could cry right now. Ugh, I’m about ready to wax poetic about the uncertainty of the future and happiness and misery. Seriously, terrible angsty one-liners are running through my head (what the fuck kind of line is “running through my head”? what bullshittery) BAHHHHHHHH. No, it’s okay. I love life. And all that rot. I had a very unsettling dream the other night.
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December 23 2009, 9:57pm | Comments »
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Brevity of Mine Life
http://www.nicolysis.net/2009/04/brevity-of-mine-life/
CAPped. Messed up the 5th grading period. On my last oppurtunity to redeem myself. Is working so far. Upgraded a friendship to level 8. Going to prom. Saw Adventureland. Loved it. Acting: mediocre. Story: much more than I expected (that is, it wasn’t the stupid sexual/drunken, though admittedly hilarious, humour of Superbad). Soundtrack: a-fucking-mazing. Finally got my letterman jacket (was supposed to get it early February). Really getting into the microblogging thing, because I never have anything lengthy or worthwhile to say. Witnessed high school drama. Annoyed. Kind of want to elaborate, but that would be breaking the terse style of this entry.
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April 19 2009, 3:21pm | Comments »
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Caltech Carnegie Mellon U Columbia U Cornell U Duke U Johns Hopkins U Rice U UT Austin CAPped → UT...
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Caltech Carnegie Mellon U Columbia U Cornell U Duke U Johns Hopkins U Rice U UT Austin CAPped → UT...
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March 31 2009, 10:03pm | Comments »
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