Saturday I hit another car, and have since been feeling ashamed and inadequate. Gino suggested that going to Linnea’s graduation party (Sunday) would cheer me up; I had previously decided not to so as to deprive myself of fun. I tend to punish myself; it’s the easiest way for me to feel just. But then my mom and dad suggested I go, too, so I went to Linnea’s around 5:15. I am so glad I went; the company was very therapeutic. It was basically a couple hours of reminiscing on twelve years of my life. I felt very happy afterwards. Even if I did feel like a terrible person – the things I taught my friends in our prepubescent years shows how unfit I am to be around children. Twelve year olds are not supposed to know things I knew when I was twelve, and for some reason I was naïve enough to think sharing such knowledge with my peers was appropriate. It’s a good thing everyone turned out okay. This summer is going to be amazing. I wrote out a list of goals, and I’m really excited about tackling them. It’s really a shame that I have trouble facing each day, though. Each morning, I remind myself of the things I have to look forward to. Do you see where I’m getting at? I really ought to be less stupid.
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I posted to nicolysis.net
Hooray friendship (cheered up)!
http://www.nicolysis.net/2009/06/hooray-friendship-cheered-up/
June 16 2009, 5:10pm | Comments »
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