My winter break ends soon. This was easily one of the best ones in a long time. I spend a lot of time with Jessie and Linnea, with whom there is never a dull moment. Even after knowing the both of them for almost 15 years, I feel like we kind of grew closer after hanging out so much this past month. That’s not to say we haven’t had lapses of communication, but it’s always so easy to just pick up right where we left off after months of time apart. And then there was the chilling with some other people I’ve only considered friends for less than 1-5 years. All in all, this was a very refreshing winter break, especially after a miserable semester in Arlington. At least this way I can look forward this new semester with a renewed attitude. Which is an interesting thing for me to say, since I don’t really believe in the whole “new year, new chances” stuff. I’m really excited to do well. Post of happy feelings.
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Bookends
http://www.nicolysis.net/2010/01/bookends/
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January 17 2010, 3:25pm | Comments »
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Let’s Try Something New or: Here We Go Again
http://www.nicolysis.net/2009/12/lets-try-something-new-or-here-we-go-again/
Wow. I feel like I only post once every other month. No, wait, that’s exactly how it is. It’s for the best, though. Otherwise there would be dozens more entries over trivial feelings and the nothings that occur in my life. Besides, anything worth mentioning can be said in 140 characters or less (that’s what Twitter is for). Or a single paragraph (that’s what tumblr is for). Of course, when I do have intentions to post here it always ends up typed, unfinished and finally deleted. From the database and my mind. Hohoho, “my mind.” On to the trivial stuff. I finished my first semester of college recently. The verdict: not bad, but I suspect it will get more difficult. Academically, I’m doing a few things wrong. But I’ve been getting better lately. I just feel really discouraged. There are many leading tones sounding off in my head, begging to be followed on, answered by silence. What can I do to better myself? Ha, ha, I started writing this entry on December 4, and so many things I had said are no longer applicable. A testament to my inability to finish thoughts. Sentences, er, concep — Great winter break so far! I’ve been able to visit with Jessie and Linnea a couple times, the Asians (a collective term for any one of them – I won’t be arsed to list them off because it’s all the same, really. Okay, kidding, but they know who they are) and brother is coming home tonight to visit for the weekend. Not too excited about Christmas Eve or whatever – for us it’s just about food. At least right now, since I’m not hungry, I don’t care or want to think a whole lot about food. I’ll probably care tomorrow when I wake up. Eh, I’m in a rush to finish this just so I can say I posted. I’m not in an especially good mood right now. Volatile emotions and whatnot. You know. Being a girl. I could cry right now. Ugh, I’m about ready to wax poetic about the uncertainty of the future and happiness and misery. Seriously, terrible angsty one-liners are running through my head (what the fuck kind of line is “running through my head”? what bullshittery) BAHHHHHHHH. No, it’s okay. I love life. And all that rot. I had a very unsettling dream the other night.
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December 23 2009, 9:57pm | Comments »
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Hooray friendship (cheered up)!
http://www.nicolysis.net/2009/06/hooray-friendship-cheered-up/
Saturday I hit another car, and have since been feeling ashamed and inadequate. Gino suggested that going to Linnea’s graduation party (Sunday) would cheer me up; I had previously decided not to so as to deprive myself of fun. I tend to punish myself; it’s the easiest way for me to feel just. But then my mom and dad suggested I go, too, so I went to Linnea’s around 5:15. I am so glad I went; the company was very therapeutic. It was basically a couple hours of reminiscing on twelve years of my life. I felt very happy afterwards. Even if I did feel like a terrible person – the things I taught my friends in our prepubescent years shows how unfit I am to be around children. Twelve year olds are not supposed to know things I knew when I was twelve, and for some reason I was naïve enough to think sharing such knowledge with my peers was appropriate. It’s a good thing everyone turned out okay. This summer is going to be amazing. I wrote out a list of goals, and I’m really excited about tackling them. It’s really a shame that I have trouble facing each day, though. Each morning, I remind myself of the things I have to look forward to. Do you see where I’m getting at? I really ought to be less stupid.
June 16 2009, 5:10pm | Comments »
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